BABYSITTING GAY NIFTY TV
Though I don’t personally recommend watching too much news content due to its effect on the nervous system! The TV screen has been a lifeline when I was too ill to leave my bed or my home. I’m going to say something that might be controversial… I don’t think watching TV is really so bad for us! I’ve discovered so much about the world from watching documentaries on travel, nature, history, the arts, and social issues, been cheered up by comedy shows, and gained tips on love and relationships from reality TV shows. Spread awareness not just for the illness you personally have, but the whole spoonie world. I was not aware of the world of chronic illness.Įducate those around you. I feel like ableism is real, but I also feel I need to remember not everyone is aware. It’s those people who direct something at one population, and yet I get offended. It’s those using my illness as a joke or a fake reason not to have a job. It’s those who refuse to believe someone as young as me can relate on a personal level to my grandmother and have numerous health problems. I try my best to not let everything affect me personally, like when people that say, “if you do not have a wheelchair, you should not use the handicap parking.” I swallow these emotions, because the last thing I need to do is make her feel like she needs to walk on eggshells.
When my younger sister wants to play doctor, I do. I hate explaining it, so I typically don’t. I hate that the smallest thing like this triggers all these emotions. I hate that I am 22 years old, and I have enough diagnoses on my chart that it takes up many pages. I hate that I am this way, and I hate that the very thought of playing doctor fills me with such dread and fear. I am sick of going to doctors with all sorts of things wrong with me and being told there is either nothing they can do or they do not believe me. She then “removed” my tonsils later.Įvery time she asks if I want to play doctor, my stomach drops. In the end, all she did was say I had strep throat. But it sometimes seems like she does not believe me. Do I expect her to perfectly understand? Of course not.
I had to explain to her over and over how it works. I wish she did, I guess she wished so too. She had asked why I was there and even had a cure for it. I just kept hoping she would not bring up my illness. Right? It makes sense for a kid to want to have something wrong with the other. She asks me why I am there, and of course, playing doctor is no fun if there is nothing wrong with you. This may sound silly, possibly petty or even me just being plain sensitive. However, after we were done playing restaurant, she wanted to play doctor. Then we swap roles and I bring her fake food. We might play a game on the card table, where I can lay in the chair on the heating pad. Naturally, she wants to play games and do things with me. I try to explain to her that I wish I felt like doing all the things she can, but having chronic fatigue syndrome leaves me very limited. In this day and age, I feel like sometimes everyone (including kids) are too busy looking at screens for entertainment instead of entertaining themselves. My sister is 10 years old, and we all try to encourage her to use her imagination and play.